Hey Honey,
This is only semi-public since I'm sure no one reads this anymore. I still hope you can understand from this just how important you are and how badly I need you.
I love you so much. I've loved you for three years and I think I know by now that I made the right decision. I just want to thank you. You're so sweet and loving and you've stuck with me patiently for all this time. You're the only thing that makes me feel like life has some stability and security. Because no matter what happens or what scares me, I always know that you will be there to squeeze me and smile and love me like no one else has ever loved me.
You're beautiful. And amazing. I wish I knew of a way to tell you this so that you'd believe it. You're my best friend. I hope to overwhelm your stubborn resistance with the sheer amount of "I love you"s that I can send your way.
When I met you, it was like a whirlwind of all these things that I never knew I loved in a girl, but I found it in you. The way you laugh. The way you run when we play basketball and you've just made a fat joke and I'm trying to be intimidating and you're not buying it at all but youre so sweet that you pretend to be worried anyway. I love the way you squeeze my arm during the scary parts of movies. I love the way you rest your head on my shoulder on the way home from church. I love the way you answer the phone when I call you at 6:30 AM on a day when you didn't have to wake up early but you still answer because you're awesome.
I don't really know how to put into words how much I love you and how you mean everything to me. I hope this semi-public proclamation of my love brings a smile to your face. If it's not enough to scare off your sadness, then I hope that the promise of our next hug is enough to remind you that you're loved. And that even when you don't understand it, you're worth every ounce of love I can muster for the rest of my life.
I love you, Darling.
-Your Nate
